¯\_(ツ)_/¯

“You don’t know what you’re missing!”
“Maybe things would’ve been different.”
“You should’ve have tried. Ungekuwa mbali saa hii.”

Yeah, yeah. Should have, would have, maybe, if, what if. Yeah, yeah, sure. I no longer hurt for things that never were nor yearn for a life that might have been. My heart no longer breaks for the lost flames. I am almost completely devoid of regret and guilt. This fills me with a bit of a mortal funk, but leaves me light and happier than I have been in a long time. Maybe it was a long time coming, learning to let go of my emotional and psychological baggage. I cannot say whether it was conscious concerted effort on my part or it was the proverbial “it was time”. Whatever it was, I had not expected this levity. It seems irresponsible to be this nonchalant ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

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